Tzar Alexander

If i had a license to kill, God knows I'd need it, because you are one person I would hate to love to kill. But He sure knows I do.

work work work

Will blog again when I have time! Sorry folks.

Song to indulge in on this snowy evening:

20/11/10

My mom announced to me through her sobs that my childhood friend died from a drug overdose. Although the heaven&hell theory is a joke, i know i'll see him again at some point. Until then, he'll just be waiting where I can't reach him...

What the fuck?! Why did i do that on Friday?!
My Sanne flew into her old hometown on Thursday. We attended THE TALLEST MAN ON EARTH at Volkshaus. It was more than a blast. Friday, I had school, then practice, then fondue, then we played Kings with Fico&Seppi at Billiards. We left and made our way (inefficiently) to NT-Areal to see Laurent play some Dub...never would've thought it would be as much fun as i had that night. I miss her already. I just returned from the train-station. She's currently on a train on her way to the Zurich airport. At least i'll see her in December! I can't wait.

I realize now that I really have to manage to learn how to work my Mac. and clean up my iPod. I have so much shit on there that I don't need to have on-the-go, and all the time. I need the space.

The Teddybears are on my mind, but in honor of this Thursday-Sunday:

je te demande un question

do you feel differently about everything because of what happened in the park?

I'm a Creep; I'm a Weirdo - Revelations

As soon as you left, i thought to myself: "I have to blog".
Has this personalized internet service become my outlet? If so, I have become quite productive without my knowledge of it.

You met me, We saw each other, I have felt you... and already my mood is rising?


- Were you what was missing from my life?

FGIT

FUCK GOD ITS THURSDAY.I HATE TODAY.EVERYTHING IS CATASTROPHICAL. BLEUURRRGGHHHHHH

Mr. P

You finally came. You little asshole. Keeping me waiting since August 28th.

But with your arrival have come other symptoms affecting me.

One is Pony --> actually, come to think of it, it didn't even start yesterday, which is when Mr. P arrived in town; more like a couple days ago!

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!

I need you right now and you refuse to get off your high-horse.

Weekend competition: exciting and scary.
Cooking with O'Neal: exciting and scary.

The upcoming week: scary.
It hasn't even started yet...what is wrong with me?

I feel like that again. Help me!

Happy Halloween!

The ultimate Halloween movie!!

Recently re-visited based on Becky's facebook mentioning of it:
the movie that made me shit myself as a 7 year old watching it on Halloween night in the attic

CasualDay

Room To Grow.

Saturday, 30th of October was definitely a memorable day.

I travelled to Zurich and saw "Train" live at Kaufleuten - excellent show. Congrats to Maddie for being chosen ;) In tribute to a wonderful evening beginning at Zeughauskeller and ending in tears, one of my favorite Train songs.



Afterwards, Nordstern called: Mayhem, DatA, Boys Noize and other, casual namedroppings.
Can't complain - was a good night. Went home quite early, but I was happy.
Thanks to the boys for sharing a cab with me. Was better than having to go so alone.

Today is Halloween. But living in Switzerland, that mean's Jack-Shit. In memory of the Halloweens in the States, I have indulged in Reeces' Whipps <3

On that note, I can't wait to leave this place.
My mood isn't quite the grandest at the moment - tired of my surroundings...and possibly a little pessimitic.

Tomorrow November 1st 02:059am is my absolute deadline to send off my Stanford Early Decision application. Exciting stuff...but i'm already getting nostalgic.

I want out.

School-Oh-School...

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE? I WILL NOT CHANGE MY COGNITIVE THOUGHT PROCESS OR EXPAND AS A PERSON IN THE NEXT 7 MONTHS; I WILL JUST BE STRESSED OUT BY PETTY IB ASSIGNMENTS. THEREFORE, CAN I JUST GRADUATE NOW?

First Days

TODAY WAS EXCEPTIONALLY WEIRD, EVEN FOR MY STANDARDS...ILL KEEP THIS SHORT, SEEING AS MY LAST POST WAS A RANT ON BAD EXPERIENCES BUT ALSO BECAUSE TODAY WAS THE FIRST FULL PRACTISE THAT I LASTED THROUGH, SO UNDERSTANDABLY, IM EFFING EXHAUSTED. AGAIN, THE PROBLEM WITH THE ENTER KEY AND THE CAPS: MY APOLOGIES. BACK TO TODAY: FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. NOT THAT BAD; WENT BY FAST; HAD A FEW BUMPY HUMPS IN BETWEEN. THE FIRST I WANNA GET OFF MY CHEST: EVERYTHING IS FINALLY CLEARED UP WITH GEORGIA, WE LAID EVERYTHING ON THE TABLE AND WERE EQUALLY AND SIMULTANEOUSLY HUMILIATED INTO ADMITTING OUR OWN LIES. FEELS GREAT TO HAVE US BACK AT WHERE WE WERE. THE SECOND: IM NOT SURE IF YOURE READING THIS, BUT WHAT HAPPENED AT LUNCH TODAY REALLY SADENNED ME BECAUSE I HATE WHEN I CANT BE THERE FOR OTHERS THE WAY THEYD LIKE, AND I HATE HURTING THEM. AND I REALIZE NOW AS I REALIZED EARLIER ON TODAY, THAT I DID HURT YOU, PROBABLY MORE THAN YOU LET ON. I WOULD LOVE FOR YOU TO CONTINUE ON AS THE CLOSE FRIENDS THAT WE ARE, AND AS I MENTIONED ON THE 23RD, I AM FOREVER GRATEFUL TO YOU. I HOPE THE TRUTH WAS MORE THE RIGHT CHOICE THAN PUSSYFOOTING AROUND WITH EMTOTIONS. THAT SAID HOWEVER, I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO BE WEIRD BETWEEN US OR ANYTHING TO CHANGE...BECAUSE WE WERE HAVING SUCH A BALL! THIRDLY, MY DAD JUST WENT APESHIT ON ME...IT MUST BE STRESS: HE HAS TO GO DO NOVARTIS'S DIRTY WORK FOR THE IN-LICENCING DEPARTMENT IN MANCHESTER, I DONT LIKE IT, BUT HE SEEMS QUITE KEEN ON TAKING ONE FOR THE GOOD OF THE COMPANY. NEVERTHELESS, HIS BEHAVIOR BEFORE WAS NOTHING SHORT OF CHILDLIKE AND PORTRAYS PERFECTLY THE STUBBORN MAN HE IS. GOODNIGHT AND GOOD LUCK ISB BASLERS, FOR TOMORROW IS DAY 2 OF HELL: "A" DAY. SLEEP WELL AND DREAM SWEET OF GRADUATION...ONLY 218 DAYS AWAY. XO

Life and Death on Thursday.

THIS POST WILL MAINLY BE A RECOLLECTION OF WHAT I REMEMBER OF THURSDAY NIGHT (THE SUITABLE PARTS) AND A TRIBUTE TO MY MARTYR AND SAVIOR, ONEAL HAAS. NOTE: IT IS ALSO WRITTEN IN CAPS BECAUSE I AM CURRENTLY ON MY WAY TO PONY'S AND I STILL DONT FULLY UNDERSTAND MY PHONE. ALSO I CANT WORK THE ENTER BUTTON SO ITS ALL GOING TO BE ONE BIG BLOB OF A PARAGRAPH. ALORS, IT STARTED OFF ALL DANDY AND SWEET AT GEORGIAS, WHERE I MOMENTARILY TURNED SOUR AND POSSIBLY JEOPARDIZED HER MOOD OF THE NIGHT AND OUR FRIENDSHIP - MY APOLOGY WILL BE COMING UP SHORTLY. I CONTINUED ON TO JOES "WOHN-GEMEINSCHAFT" - ALSO DANDY AND SWEET...UNTIL THE BOTTLE OF WINE WAS GIVEN TO IRENE. AND BY BOTTLE, I MEAN BOTTLE. IT WAS TOO MUCH, TOO FAST. MADE OUR WAY TO NORDI - YES THE WHOLE GROUP - ABSOLUTELY NOISILY RECKLESS AND ANARCHISTICLY (SWISS STANDARDS FOR A THURSDAY). GOT TO NORDI: BLUEBERRY NIGHTS FOLLOWED BY BARKEEPER+POTENTIAL SNOW, FENCES AND SLAP+TICKLE IN THE PARK, SAVING ME FROM POTENTIAL SNOW, BUT LEADING TO LOSS OF ALL MONEY, BATHROOM SESSION...FOLLOWING BY LOSS OF ALL THAT IS TRUE. HERES WHERE ONEAL COMES TO THE RESCUE: I HAD TO LEAVE. BAAADLY. SO HE PUTS YOURS TRULY INTO A MINI-CAB, WITH THE ACCOMPANIMENT OF HIS GLORIOUS SELF, MID-WAY TO HIS CASA, STOP THE CAB- BLEEEEUGHHHHHH ANDDDD CONTINUE. AT HIS HOUSE - FINALLY - AND BLEUUUUGHHH AGAIN IN THE DOORWAY OF THE BATHROOM. TOILET DIDNT MAKE IT. APOLOGIES TO ALL OF THE HAAS HOUSEHOLD. SLEEP FOR A LITTLE. RETURN TO NORDI TO HOP ILLEGALLY OVER FENCES ONCE MORE TO FIND THE MONEY - ONLY IN SWITZERLAND I SWEAR - FOUND IT. NOTICE TEARS AND BLOOD AND BRUISES FROM THE NIGHT BEFORE - BLOOD ON ONEALS PHONE AS WELL - MINE? - COULDNT SAY. RETURN HOME TO BED - ABSOLUTELY AND INDEFINITELY POISONED...WHICH JUST ENDED THIS MORNING - ALSO HAPPENED TO BE THE MORNING OF MY ACT AT THE BLACK FOREST ACADEMY, WHERE I LAUGHED BECAUSE THEY PRAYED BEFORE TAKING A TEST. ALL TOGETHER. FORGIVE ME, JESUS. I FEEL MUCH BETTER NOW, SO IM GOING TO THE MOVIES. TO SPEND TIME WITH MY PONY, BUT ALSO TO CELEBRATE NOT HAVING AAAANY MORE UNI-ENTRANCE EXAMS TO WRITE. WHOOPIE! UNTIL NEXT TIME, READERS OF THE INTERNET. XO STAY HEALTHY..ITS GONNA BE A LONG WINTER.

Nord*Night

So last night I attended Tetris4 in none other but Norsternchen, and was entirely bombarded by good people (maybe a little too much by some) and excellent music. We danced danced danced, had a few encounters in the bathroom with a drugged-up-hipster and saw my long lost friend Luka! Speaking of long lost friends, i saw a large number of them...maybe i should attend uni-parties more often?
Bottom line, my outlook on Nordstern's being was raised again to where it should be. I realized that if something shitty happens in a place, that place should be irrelevant to the equation. Unfortunately though, I had to practice before I preached for this particular aspect of nightlife before i understood what the hell i understand now.
Cryptonites enabled me to have one of those nights that words can't explain...and therefore, Nordsternchen is restored in all its crooked glory.
Anyways, it was fun while it lasted, but my head is about to explode, and Milan snores pretty loud. Thank god for the ability to pass out in bed and not have to deal with it, huh?
I look (very much so) forward to seeing Pony tonight; i hope we can arrange something appropriate, because TOMORROW, i'm off to Geneva to finalize my applications! Exciting stuff, this university business...but that's a completely different topic.

A couple raw eggs, tomato juice and some vegetables later,
I bid thee farewell oh cyber-time-wasters and enjoy your weekend!
xo

The Pixies

With your feet in the air and your head on the ground.


Where is my mind, where is my mind, Wheee-re is my mind?

So i'm sitting in the workroom supposedly doing work (okay, no i was), listening to Radio X on my phone, when SUDDENLY the 1988 melody that has forever been engraved into my long-term memory starts playing. Well naturally, I freaked out. And so i had to blog about it. There we go.
I said it. Now back to my Periodicity Topic 3.

MyMuseSinceMonday

The XX - Islands

Ashtar Command - Dead Man's Gun

Silver Lining (Album version) - Hurts

The Clouds Marched - Circadian Eyes

History - Funeral for a Friend

It sucks being sick at home...but not really --
(not with this music circulating alongside my blood stream)

Dates in the near future that I am looking forward to:

18/09/10
24/09/10
25/09/10
23/10/10
24/10/10
31/10/10
11-14/11/10
16/11/10

18-21/11/10 I can't wait to see you.

Giorgos Mihalis Giorgadis

So apparently George Michael is so important to have made front page of BBC News. Not just any tabloid, but BBC.

"George Michael has been given an eight-week sentence for crashing his car while under the influence of cannabis."

What has this world come to? First Britney and her baldness rule the news, then the sickening Zanessa couplet and now the washed out Greek-turned-English Wham! boy?

I should focus in school more.

A song that is particularly relevant to today's happenings and quite fresh in my mind!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bjhwa65K1kM

Memories

This post is not limited to any particular time: A couple things i forgot to write about after they had happened so i figured i just have to combine them in one --> my connection is being an idiot. i only had the patience to upload one thing.

The picture that made me think of my new and dear friend, Jillacka :)

Note:
a moment of silence for the people that died and for the families that were affected 9 years ago this morning. My heart beats Blue, Red and White today.

Neuigkeiten

my baby got a blog!

ForeverYoung

It's that time of year again: the last few days before summer "break". Except this time, it's different. It's the first time that i'll be experiencing my last summer before school starts up again. This time next year, I don't know where i'll be, or what i'll be doing. My life as of this point, is ambiguous. It can either flourish and I'll spread my wings in joy, or i'll crumble like a phoenix after death. You know that saying, time will tell? In this case, that's all i can say. Who knows what will happen; the timing now is so fragile. One little flick of a fail, and my future is destroyed.

That isn't to say that everything will be lost if it doesn't turn out like i expect, or should i say, hope it does. There is always room for improvement, and what i love more than life is being in an environment surrounded by lovely, competitive people striving to make something of themselves. This is what gives me hope in life. I have come to a certain pivotal point in my life lately. I realized that even though in the past months I thought I was changing because I was growing up, I now understand that the changes I was making where indeed making me grow up, but in the wrong direction, and they were in fact, making me immature. I began to grow immaturely. Not anymore. That phase of my life has come to an end. And with this end, so has the carelessness of my future and my goals.

I carried out a short but so influential conversation with Lea Maurer yesterday. For those of you who aren't familiar in the swimming world, she is the Head Women's Coach at Stanford University in Palo Alto. I have set up a meeting with her at the university campus pool, and so, around the 20th of July, i fly to my dream school and inevitably, to make my dreams come true.

Naivety might sometimes be my weakness, but it is also my strength. I strive to make my dreams possible. I strive to accomplish my life-goals. As much as I am afraid of my future, I long to be in it, and as much as I hate to admit it...it starts tomorrow.

With the last day of junior year come a number of responsibilities. This summer I will work hard and be concentrated to prepare myself for my next and final year of high school. After that, (and having done everything I can to be ready) only a higher power will deem my fate.

Having said that, I will you all an amazing summer, enjoy your partying and your friends, because honestly said, by September next year, you won't have any. The IB will be your best and worst nightmare. So long, take care, ENJOY and all that other shit that inhabits my yearbook.

Class of 2011, we shall meet again soon.

Saturday Nights

Push Here.

Too Much to Report!!

My last post was on April 16th. Since then, so much has happened that it's almost safe to say that my world has been changed around.
I don't even know where to start.

I guess the one thing i do know to say is that exams start is less than a week.

Tues: English Paper 1 -2h
Wed: French Paper 2 -1.5h; Chemistry Paper 1 -30min.; Chemistry Paper 2 -1h15m
Thurs: Math Paper 1 -1.5h
Fri: Biology Paper 1- 45m; Biology Paper 2 -1h15m
Mon: Math Paper 2 -1.5h
Tues: Psychology Paper 1 -2h
Wed: French Paper 1 -1.5h
Thurs: FREE!!
Fri: Psychology Paper 3 -1h

This is what will be going on in my head until June 4th, and to make matters worse, I will be sitting my German and English Literature SAT IIs on June 5th.
This means no partying-end-of-exams with my friends on the night of the 4th.
But therefore, on the 5th, the fun will really hit the streets :)


Thank you to tokepi for agreeing to help with my German study.

-Artist that gets me through studying:
'My Toys Like Me' seen sometime in ..September 2009 in Zurich. Just re-discovered them.

Impure Vulnerability, Helplessness and Rage

Enter.

Adventure finally comes to an end.

Touchdown in Ancona (approximately 20 minutes)

Arrival in Milan -driving by car- (approximately 20 minutes+4 hours)

Boarding of train -to Basel- (17:20; 18:20; 19:20 --> depending which we make)

Arrival at Basel SBB (21:30; 22:30; 23:30)

Seeing my baby again --> around those times.

CAN'T WAIT to be back home.

17 going on Dead.

It's my birthday today. Yippee, right?
Not particularly, since a) i've been so emotionally allovertheplace that i forgot, b) i'm in the middle of the fucking ocean going to a fucking get-old-really-fast place that i for the life of me, DIDN'T want to go, and c) because my parents are interrogating me half-worried, half-pushy, asking me why i cry myself to sleep each night.

I spent 5 days and 4 nights in Bordeaux, FR with my man. We had an amazing time. It was so great spending all those hours together, when under normal circumstances, we're lucky to see each other for more than 30 minutes a day.

It feels abnormal now, not to have him by my side when i wake up. And in the nights, i even miss his ridiculously loud snoring that persisted that i stay awake a few months ago.

Since when is easter+the day that jesus died more important than the day your daughter turns 17? I'm not one to put much emphasis on age and whatnot, and birthdays are not extreeemely important (ok fine, sometimes they are.) but my direct family isn't even religious. It's more about the feasting and drinking that my parents are upset about missing.

But what do i get? A pat on the back and a sparse hug: Happy Birthday, kid.


This is going to be an awesome vacation. By myself.

Into Oblivion.

Not only did i watch this song two years ago at the Abart Club in Zurich, have a great time with the members of FFAF and return to my house smelling like beer, smoke and sweat, but i'm about to embark on the actual journey.


I wonder...is there ever a correct time to do it? Or do people just up and away on their own judgment?

I miss you.

La Morte de la Vie.

Je ne sais pas ce que je veux maintenant. Non plus, j'ai voulu dire.

J'ai le droit de vivre ma propre vie, non?

La société et ses functions sont merde.

Soit ton même person, mais trouve l'endroit entre l'anarchie et la liberté.

It's 18:00 on a Thursday afternoon...

and sometimes i really wonder what you expect from me.

I was and am my own person, even before i met you.

Dropping everything [what & when] you want just isn't possible.

You once said i'm a very strong person. Well maybe that's why i refuse to do what you ask of me.

I just can't. As much as i need you, i need them too.

Fine, tell me your opinion about them; maybe i should have told you earlier, but that opinion won't change mine.

They might not look like much to you, but they're special to me. Every single one of them.

spring

Even the Blick am Abend thinks so.

The sun is shining in Basel once again, after a very long awaited and white winter. Yesterday was the first official day of an old buddy of mine named Spring. I'm so excited, I can't even begin to explain. Spring comes hand-in-hand with flip flops, unexpected showers of warm rain, and fun with my friends outside the closed perimeters of our cement houses. I came back from the Swiss-Teams Final Round on Sunday, and although our destination wasn't the happiest place, had a great time with Sacha and his family at the hospital visiting his grandma. (Apparently, she thinks i'm super!!) We returned to my house and had dinner with my mom (yes, lamb again. we're greek :)) and then I was in for an early night.

Yesterday, I experienced probably the greatest thing that has ever been invented: RadioBallet.

[For more information: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qI3pfa5QNZI&feature=related]

This was practically too much fun to have on a Monday night, but nonetheless, Sacha and myself danced, jumped, whipped and fiddled our way around the St.Johann bahnhof for the 1.5 hour theater. I returned home with a feeling of utter joy buried deep within me, which i haven't experienced for a long time.

Tonight I'm accompaning Jackie to Zurich for the 30 Second to Mars concert. It will be radical; I can't wait. Tomorrow morning, I have parent/teacher/student meetings. This, I can wait for.

5 minutes til Math. Period 9 of the day. Pray that i'll get through it in one piece. [Is Milan here?]

Yupee-doo-da, and have a good afternoon.


A Cartoon that caught my eye: http://beniaminus.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/06/Agnes-Ponders-the-Coolness-of-Crafts.jpg [maybe because my artsy-side has been shining more than my logical one lately. Oh, another thing to mention: I have now officially registered for the May 1st SAT sitting. VERY exciting.]

Agir sur le Subconscient

Lyrics of the Week: You can see in her eyes that no one is her chain.


I’ve spent the last 7 days at swim camp in Rabenberg. Upon arriving on Valentine’s Day, I expected hell to break out again – experience from last year flooded my imagination – but as Monday ended, along with our first two trainings, I could see that this year was different. From laughing hysterically both in the water and in bed, eating non-stop, watching Dexter, DSDS and home-made soft-porn, setting out buckets on the pool-edge for people to puke in, smelling Marc’s and Figu’s farts to missing Basel, this sure has been one of the memorable camps I’ve been to with SCLiestal.

The middle-point of camp, namely Sunday 21st, I woke up feeling dizzy and light-headed. This, I blamed on hunger. After eating though, the feeling persisted. I was tired: too tired to work out or train, and thank god my coach noticed. I got the day off, which definitely helped my situation. I managed to study and finish my biology HL notes and talk to Sacha before 5pm. Normally, at this time I would be halfway through afternoon practice. Turns out everyone on my team was overly tired, so afternoon practice was cancelled. Instead, cross-country skiing and fitness room became options. I was able to skip both, and update my blog.


I anticipate returning to Basel and seeing all my friends.


Many nerve-wracking dates await me: end of semester math exam, Geo’s return, SAT prep, Andi’s CD Launch, SWISS CHAMPIONSHIPS, seeing Kelsey after a period of…12 years?, Prom ’10, VM Finals, 30STM concert with Jackie, Huoratron and finally, my getaway to Bordeaux with the one person that controls the ambiance of my life.




Because I miss you.

Dawning-ation on me.

Remember how i was saying something's changed? Well, for a while, i thought that was just a figment of my imagination. But seems like it isn't after all.

I'm not sure if its due to like end-of-school-time-stress or angst about boot camp...but it's really bothering me. I'm going to dinner tonight with my mommy (and Geo maybe), so hopefully that'll lift some of the AAAARGH. God, i hope so. Because i don't think i can take much of this anymore.

And god help me, if my parents say anything about me not going out this weekend, i'm going to break.

Fidelity.

You are driving me crazy.

"Damn, (s)he's a sexy bitch"

Thursday the 4th of February was hands-down the funniest day
of my school career yet.

Break time - 10:15 - :

Ms. Round (notice the lack of "MRS".) approaches me and asks me
"Irene, are you wearing a skirt?" --> i have a short dress on with tights and swim-shorts on underneath. When i stand straight, you can't see my shorts, hence you think i'm not wearing anything except transparent tights."

Irene (cheekily): Um, no. I'm wearing a dress.
Round: Well do you have something underneath?
Irene: Yes. A pair of shorts. (reveals herself to Round)
Round: (naively, not knowing the difference between lingerie and drag-shorts) Well, those are little silky hotpants. This outfit is quite inappropriate. Mr. Sims sent me on a mission to seek out all the girls who are dressed inappropriately.
Irene: (raises eyebrows)
Round: Well, you're causing quite a stir with the young male teachers, Irene. It's creating problems.
Irene: (laughs and walks away - thinking MR. BRYANT ^^)
Round: (scampering behind) Irene! Make sure you're dressed more suitably tomorrow.
Irene: (AS IF I WOULD WEAR THE SAME THING TWICE.) I'll be wearing sweatpants. (walks away)


Towards the end of last period (psychology); we get let out early, Geo runs off upstairs, i take my time with the others - 15:40 - :

Geo: (other end of the high school hallway; starts running towards me) IREEENEEEEEEE!!!
Irene: What is it?
Geo: You will never believe what i overheard!
Irene: Oh god, What?
Geo: So, i was walking past Mr. Sims office like two seconds ago, when i heard Round going "Yeah, and i told her her dress was too short, and she replied 'Well, i'm wearing shorts' ..." And then i ran away!!
Irene: UUUnbelievable. She's ridiculous.
Geo: Yeah I Know!!
(All this happening RIGHT outside Sim's office. -,-)


15:45 Me and Geo walk to Mrs. Schenk's office:

We re-tell the whole story, (including break time) to Mrs. Schenk, when suddenly,
Geo: Yeah, she just needs a very good shag.

All three of us laugh maniacally.
Walking back to the lockers, we meet Mr. Bowen:

Re-tell the whole story to him too, whispering this time - again outside Sim's office.

Geo: We'll know when she's had a real good weekend, but that little "twinkle in her eye".
Irene: Yeah Mr. Bowen, we're watching you for that.
Geo: See you on Monday with the TWINKLE :)

Now Geo, i guess we just have to pay extra special attention to his eyes on Monday ^^

Disappointment.

I attended the Mid-Euro-Meet 2010 in Luxembourg over the weekend, where i came into contact with some of the world's greatest swimmers. These included Alain Bernard, Coralie Balmy, Randall Bal, Dimitris Xynadas, and many more. My swimming was up to standards considering it was our first meet in a 50m pool. Our drive there was horrible. Car-trouble, bad weather, awful smells...everything you can think of, we had. Thank god Marc was there so i could sleep on his shoulder (fun fact: due to the sculpting of swimmer's shoulder muscles, they provide excellent sleeping sources!)

However, during our drive back, i metaphorically got slapped in the face. Something that had been said to me much earlier (around end of 2009) completely lost its validity, and with it, went my faith. And due to that, i'm extremely disappointed. As a wise girl often says: "You can remove the girl from the city, but you can't remove the city from the girl." This, i fear, is too much the case here. But i won't lose all optimism, as in a situation like this, only time can tell, and i really hope time will prove to be on my side.

Something has changed. And i'm not referring to all that philosophical bullshit about time and absence changing a person, but my psyche has metamorphosed. I'm not sure into what yet, or what aspect has been altered - if any major one - but i fear that here, the only thing i know for certain, is that only time can tell again.

All for now, and just because i'm in the mood, i've attached one of my favorite Fischli&Weiss captured art pieces:


Enjoy your week, and see me on the weekend.
-I

ps.
a) Unfortunately, the picture is too wide. Click on it for the original image.
b) Don't walk on snow/ice with flip flops: you'll break your fucking wrist. Twice.

Special Edition Child.

I haven't blogged in ever so long, and as weird as this sounds, i do feel that it's taking a toll on me.

This last week and a half have been like weary dreamland but in 3D special effects. I don't even know how to explain it. It's kinda like those über-cheesy Twilight scenes from the woods where Bella and Edward are doing whatever makes the little kids scream for them on the red carpet, but i'm watching it through a spider's vision. (for those who aren't up to date with Arachnidia, spiders see super well and can zoom in and out with their eyes)
I keep having nightmares of horrendous things that seem ridiculous when other people hear about them but that are enough to make me injure myself in my sleep and piss my pants.

Last night entailed of Sacha's house, Geo's house, Enter Shikari, Geo-nightmare, Sacha's house. Not sure what adjective i'd use to describe the whole evening...but "eventful" sums it all up.

I'm dead right now. Terrible eye-ache. and foot-ache. and my arm hurts as well...

I think my body is infected. Is that possible?

Cheery-up, up and away.

The Best Idea We've Ever Had:

( and i say "we", because he and i are a packet now. Even if we're not doing something together, the other is always in mind)

On the 27th or 28th of March,

we will embark on our first out-of-familiar-surroundings together.

I can't even start to express how excited i am.

Mainly because i won't be telling my parents anything until i'm standing in front of my gate at the airport.

Place-to-be-announced .... here we come. <4

Un-named.

These last two days have been pretty stressful. Before i continue, i'd just like to say that sometimes i feel like i should be spilling my anxieties to my closest friends, but somehow when the right time comes to do so, my mind refuses to trigger my synapses and tell my mouth to start moving. This obviously adds up the stress. Because believe it or not, i was once a person who kept every worry bottled up inside, but i soon learned that wasn't the healthy way to live my life, so with help from my coach, i was soon able to tell people what i felt and why.

Since my best friend moved away to the little shithole (excuse me, Sanne-lee ^^) and left me back "home", with the snow-and-turk infested land, i've had difficulty letting go of some things.

I'd like to use this opportunity of posting, to unburden myself onto the screen and hopefully let go of some stress. (although i have to admit, these last two (and first) days of school have been very chill...). Well Hey! Enjoy reading about my problems:

1. was finally telling them they're controlling freaks who obviously are trying to ruin my future the correct way of saying it?
2. i understand why you had to leave...i just hate it because you're not here and there's nothing i can do about it.
3. you are my life and armour, but is there really the posibility that you'll drag me down like he said?
4. i know those little words are overused in this modern world, but sometimes i can't stop from feeling hurt whenever you don't say them when you had a good opportunity to.
5. where does it go from here? as in, what now?
6. oh, stop whispering down the hall/in the other room. i can fucking hear you.
7. i think i'm getting future-angst. is this positive or negative? or can it be both?
8. fuck mr. sims.


Have a great evening. xo

Then came the end..

So i haven't posted for a really long time, and if the internet connection on the ferry boat on my way back to Switzerland hadn't been so damn slow and glitchy, my essay would've now been posted. -.-
Last time i posted, i wrote that i was stealing the neighbor's wireless. well, he caught on i guess and passworded-it. Therefore, even with my super hacking skills, i couldn't use it anymore. This made me internet-less until the ferry boat. (slow, but ONLINE-ABLE nonetheless)...

I did see Avatar in the end...twice. Once 2D at the Mall, and 3D the next day with my parents and some family friends. I'm sure seeing it twice was positive towards my Avatar-experience, because the first time i watched it, i could concentrate on the storyline and the typical movie-moments, whereas the second time, i was enveloped by graphics. it was genious.

Moments to remember and mention:

the many nights @ Güzel with the friends i miss ever so much, finally managing to find a night where Dimitri and i could go out in peace (haha not like every other time we try to organize something), meeting Spyro, Christmas feast/ New Year's feast @ Psychiko, New Year's after-party @ Güzel (^^) and having a tremendous flashback to summer '09, peeing with Christina and Alexandra, just like old times (and recent.), the amazing bar Nick took me to overlooking the coast of Faliro, driving around with him and getting lost in Kalithea, the horrible leg-butt-calf ache from wearing heels every day, asking the waitor-boy at Day-Night Bar if he was Santa Claus, accepting weird looks because of my hair (apparently that trend hasn't reached Athens yet!), being called Anna Bissi due to my hair -.-, the final understanding of how stubborn greek boys are, the famous Greek sidewalks and all their beauty (hah!), drunken stupors with the extended Katopodis family, missing my baby every minute of the vacation, being able to swim outdoors and tan in December, and finally, the trip back towards home sweet home: cat shit, cat piss, cat puke inclusive.

ps. my mother broke my camera. therefore, my vacation's pictures were cut short after xmas.

These holidays made me miss my city. But right now, Basel is where i belong. With you. Not because of you. Remember that. <4

So i just wrote a whole essay of a post, and my damn internet connection is too retarded to let it actually get posted...

FML.




(i'm not writing it again now. i will when i get home ARGHHHHHHHH)